Unlucky

My monthly test has finally over. I should be glad about that but honestly I'm not. Why? Because I know that I'm going to fail all the papers. However, beside disappointed, I understand that I deserve to fail because I didn't study for it. So, in order to convince myself, I said to myself that I'll work harder and do not work in the final minute.


Besides, that title "Unlucky" above signifies myself. I feel that I've been quite unlucky lately. I myself also find no explanation to this. So I think it's better for me to use the word unlucky. No matter what I do, it'll fails or goes wrong. Not just that, the results or in a better word the consequences are big.


In order to escape from that, I've tried to stay away from other people and not to be busybody so that I'll not be blamed and won't cause troubles for my unluckiness. Unfortunately, it doesn't works. Although I didn't find the troubles but they find me. Zzzzz.....


The people around me keep causing me troubles and I'm the one who are going to take responsibility. Besides, other people also keep finding troubles with me and also mess with me. Why? Why I don't want to mess with them but they want to mess with me? Can't you all just leave me alone peacefully?


This unluckiness is going to end. If not I myself will end it. This unluckiness is not going to cause me any troubles anymore. This make me SICK!!!


IT'S OVER!!!


And to those people who are still gonna mess with me, I'm gonna tell you that if you wanna mess with me, BRING IT ON!!!

An End..........

Good Morning! I think this is the best words that I can say or wish all of you at this time. It's in the middle of the night and yet I'm still awake and type this blog out. Why? Why I'm still awake? or Why I'm not asleep? Ahah! Because I've a feeling of uncomfortable which I can't describe.


However, I'll roughly describe it out. Hours later, it'll be my 1st form 6 monthly test. Unfortunately, I'm not ready for it. I just touch my books a little. Hahaha!!! I know that I'm not going to do the test well. Since I can already predicted it, but I wonder why I still suffer the feeling of worry & scare. I'm more than not ready or rather not I'm not ready at all.


Since my form 6 has started, besides attending classes, I seldom touch my books or do any revision. So, my basics are very little. For tomorrow, I feel like I got nothing for the test and once again I'll lose and fail to regain my dignity. However, i know that I deserve it because of my laziness. Hahaha!!!


Last time including this time, I usually studied in the last minutes. I studied till the middle of the night or the whole night. Sometimes, I didn't sleep for the whole night. The results of this is none other than the word FAIL!!!


I suffered a lot and I think it's time to put an end to this craps. This is the last time I'm doing this craps. And for this test, I've no choice but to try my best just to pass it even though it's going to be a suicide. I ain't gonna repeat this craps again.


Last but not least, I'm looking forward to the final exam at the end of the year. I promise that it'll going to be DIFFERENT!!!

The 1st Monthly Test

My 1st 3 words are OMG!!!


My 1st monthly test of form 6 is just around the corner.


But..........I just started my revision or rather my studies because I just started to touch my books lately.


SHIT!!! I've no confident in this test at all and I'M SCARE!!!


Anyway, I"ll try my best to pass every paper.


I don't aim to score but just to pass. I'll be very thankful and satisfied if I can pass all the papers in this test.